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Every new beginning starts with the pain of previous events and a bundle of hope for a better future.

Every beginning is difficult. The difference is that the difficulty is different, because of the weight of emotions which sometimes is more/less bearable on a given day as well as depends on the specific situation what happened. Because when I start learning a new language, it is not only difficult due to the novelty of the subject itself, but also awakened beliefs can demotivate; thoughts like “I could spend this time much more pleasantly” arise often; the lack of immediate gratification becomes apparent; sometimes there are complaints from friends who demand to spend time together. So it is often a fight with a bigger opponent than is visible. On the other hand, I have to disarm a completely different burden when starting a new life without a loved one by my side (after a breakup or loss).

There is no scale to compare which situation is harder; which person has worse situation; which emotion is more desirable. They are all part of life and should not be rejected, neglected, belittled or compared. 

As I am sitting now writing this post, I am starting my new beginning once again. And for the 4th time in my life I moved to a completely different end of the world. The place which appeared in my head always like from a fairy tale. While I was preparing to make this decision for a year, after getting a visa I still didn’t know what to choose - experiencing a new chapter with my loved one, starting a studies of my dream or follow my gut and fly away to complete this challenge. So at the end, fate chose for me - my beloved left me and applications at Uni had been closed. Then I felt that nothing was keeping me on place, only sad feelings, memories and my family. So in less than a month I took care of the important things, quit my job, packed necessary things and here I am- fulfilling a long time idea with finding my place on this planet to settle down.

Unfortunately paying for it with a lot of stress, worries, running around for errands, bitten nails, a few sleepless nights, a quick goodbye to the closest; keeping a regret of leaving a nice and safe job, postponing once again the possibility of becoming a master in psychology, taking medications and visiting psychiatrist… Finally I am achieving my biggest dream ever! I am inviting you to do the same or if you are content with your life, then enjoy my adventure through this crazy world. (As an adult already, I still dunno what the heck is going on, on our planet). 

What is more, it is also a new beginning as a writer here on this blog. I had couple of websites in my past which I abandoned sooner or later as I am very critic on my work but hopefully this one will continue.

I hope you enjoy reading. If you are interested how it happened that I am at this end of the world, you can start here.

"To be a human being is to be in a state of tension between your appetites and your dreams, and the social realities around you and your obligations to your fellow man.” ~ John Updike

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